I'm Here to stay. Visual doesn't match what the song means to me but the music is there.

"Here To Stay"

This time, taking it away
I've got a problem, with me getting in the way,
Not by design
So I take my face and bash it into a mirror.
I won't have to see the pain (bleed, bleed)

This state is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating.
Anticipating, all the fucked up feelings again.

The hurt inside is fading
This shit's gone way too far.
All this time I've been waiting
No I can not grieve anymore.
For once inside awaking.
I'm done, I'm not a whore.
You've taken everything and, oh, I cannot give anymore.

My mind is done with this,
Okay, I've got a question.
"Can I throw it all away?"
Take back what's mine
So I take my time, guiding the blade down the line
Each cut closer to the vein (vein, vein)

This state is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating.
Anticipating, all the fucked up feelings again.

The hurt inside is fading
This shit's gone way too far.
All this time I've been waiting
No I can not grieve anymore.
For once inside awaking.
I'm done, I'm not a whore.
You've taken everything and, oh, I cannot give anymore.

I'm here to stay (bring it down) [x4]
Bring it down [x4]
Gonna break it down [x7]
GONNA BREAK IT!

This state is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating.
Anticipating, all the fucked up feelings again.

The hurt inside is fading
This shit's gone way too far.
All this time I've been waiting
No I can not grieve anymore.
For once inside awaking.
I'm done, I'm not a whore.
You've taken everything and, oh, I cannot give anymore.

Give anymore [X4]

Entwined into my soul

Some songs feel like the were written for you, this one is about me.

Beautiful and energizing

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Wake up fresh and alive with this...

The end of a year and I'm excited!

Tomorrow a new year begins, filled with new opportunities and possibilities. I embrace tomorrow. I plan to grab hold and make it my own. I will dream with new confidence that what I hope to accomplish will be mine to take and any obstacles will be merely bumps, not mountains. I sold my first painting this year, I sold glass beads and jewelry. I attended Artfest, embracing the experience alone and comfortably. I've grown this year in many ways and I'm ready for what's to come. There will be challenges to get what I want accomplished, I can see some already but I have a new outlook. There will be no more waiting for the time to be right. The time for me is now. There is no perfect time I realize now, took almost 40 years to realize that but better late than too late! ;)

I don't have any new pictures on my laptop to share, they are still in the camera so I will share one of my favorite beads I've made. This new year I will post often so please come by and leave a message and share this journey with me.

Winding up to Jump off the fear factory.

It's been a hard 2 months creative wise for me. For the first time since the beginning of motherhood all my children are in school and up until 2 weeks ago no one really needed me during the day. The idea was that I would pursue my Art career full time once the kids were in full days of school but the adjustment for myself took longer than I expected. Now though, I'm ready! I'm so pumped and excited and full of energy towards it, I can't wait to get started but I still have that annoying little string holding me back.



What I want to know is who'd holding the string, what's it attached to and why is it tied to me?



Of course I know the answers.



It's me. All me.



Why do we tie these strings around us. Why do we tie the strings of doubt, fear and allowance to create to ourselves. I know it's all me. I know cause my husband is impatient for me to start creating, my kids love me creating and my friends encourage me to create. The doubt and the fear and the allowing ourselves are such strong factors in the risk of creation though. And I think to fully live the creative life you have to tackle those demons and only the creative soul actually knows how enormous those demons can become.

Repeating the same Mistakes

We humans and creatures of repetion, even if it's something that doesn't work. Drowning in my own mistakes and resulting emotion, here I go.
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